Regarding my dissertation topic, I have come to find that I have turned small after drinking the academic Kool-Aid, and unwittingly followed a rabbit down a hole to find myself conversing with a grinning Cheshire Cat. “Academia,” he says, “is capricious.” Apparently, my study, according to Tweedle Dee and Tweddle Dum, is nowhere and unworthy, yet everywhere and worthy. “Quel dommage!”
Reflecting on the research and theory literature PDf’s involved in preparation for the undertaking, it appears to have been unnecessary and irrelevant. In general terms, it was a waste of time. But, despite the setback, I shall prevail, all the while grinning as the cat taught me, “for we’re all mad here, you see!”
In the coming weeks, I will seek to acquire a new direction and develop a suitable and approved topic in need of study. It will be a study deemed worthy and blessed by those who control the gate. I will rebuild my library of books and papers and continue tenaciously to conquer every challenge placed before me along the journey’s path. I will find the mushroom that makes me larger and eat it, even if it is bitter or tastes like dirt. Only death will deprive me of success.
This reflection is intentionally short and prudently written, particularly since there are thoughts roiling about what would become an endless tirade of anger, disappointment, betrayal, and insults. However, as I reflect on the moment and the circumstances I find myself in , a clarity has emerged, which has led me to see the reality hidden behind an illusion perpetrated by academia. An epiphany! This is not a dream. I am in Wonderland.
Instructional Engineering - A Journey of Discovery 